2020 I am just about ready for you …

I both ended last year and entered the new one back home in Sweden, my country of origin. And only now has it dawned on me that it is 2020, twenty-twenty … as a friend said, easy to write: 2020
I truly hope it is going to be an “easy” year, in many ways.

I have started off on a wobbly foot, physically imbalanced and emotionally drained. Not so strange as I ended part of my working life in November last year. A rather significant stage in life is over, but obviously only to enter a new one. However I think work is a big part of who you interpret yourself to be and the change is not obvious. What I have to remind myself of is that in every transition in life it is the luggage that makes it easy or difficult. Both in a literal but also spiritual way. I am a light traveller and believe I have left most of my “luggage” along the way but there are still some judgements and self doubts that needs to be left, or rather to be accepted and forgiven.
I have shifted from the “letting go” to look at it as an “acceptance” instead. It is easier for me than trying to erase or forget about events and when I have accepted it, I can forgive. And from there I grow.

So instead of stressing about the months already passed this year, I am going to prepare myself for the astrological New Year instead. Which begins when the Sun enters Aries at the March Equinox, I think it will be on March 20th. How exciting with less luggage and no expectations as I feel that is what my current imbalance is all about. I celebrated our actual new year in the company of family surrounded by snow, which was magical and special, but then I got sidetracked. Sidetracked by the life that happens even if we try to seize the moment. By March I am confident I have caught up with the rest of you …

.. in the meantime read the below a friend of mine posted on Facebook recently, a traditional Náhuatl (indigenous people from Mexico) prayer worth repeating, embracing and living by:

“I release my parents from the feeling that they have failed with me.
I release my children from the need to make me proud, so that they can write their own ways, according to their hearts.

I release my partner from the obligation to make me feel complete. I lack nothing in myself.
I learn with all the beings that surround me through all time.

I thank my grandparents and ancestors who met so that today I breathe life. And I release them from the faults of the past and from the wishes they did not fulfill, aware that they did the best they could to resolve their situations, within the consciousness they had at that moment. 

I honor them, I love them, and I recognize their innocence.

I bare my soul before their eyes and that is why they know that I do not hide or owe anything, more than being faithful to myself and my own existence walking with the wisdom of the heart.

I am aware that I am fulfilling my life project, free of visible and invisible family loyalties that may disturb my peace and my happiness, which are my greatest responsibilities.

I renounce the role of savior, of being the one who unites or who fulfills the expectations of others. And learning through LOVE, I bless my essence and my way of expressing, although there may be someone who cannot understand me.

I understand myself, because only I lived and experienced my story; because I know myself, I know who I am, what I feel, what I do and why I do it.

I respect and approve.

I honor the Divinity in me and in you.

We are free.”

~ A Traditional Náhuatl Prayer
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